thru papa's love

MAYBE i just can't live with loneliness. I don't mind being alone but being lonely never fails to make me miserable. To me being alone is a choice. I don't lack company. There is always things to do with companionship. I came home to an empty house every Sat, lately. My family would be at aunt's. Then again even when my family is home, I still feel lonely. While the rest watched TV and I want to join them, they never include me in their conversation. Yes, the walls have been my friends. Soon, these walls would even be my family. Only when Papa comes home, I feel I'm home. He will make sure we eat together and talk over issues at work and health. The amount of quality talk was shared between besties; Hiddy and Phil is definitely more than anyone I spoke to, at home. Sad but true. Papa's love is most vocal or the least, I'd hear in my loneliness.

bday

Hiddy and I celebrated our birthday with Philo by going to Universal Studios Singapore. Being out with my two besties made it an even special day. There weren't much rides. The one I took was scary enough but I'd Phil with me so I felt safer. I loved the Shrek 4D adventure ride. A lil disappointed that I couldn't take any pictures with any character.

This guy ran after me. He stared at me while Phil took our picture. After which Phil asked if I forgot he is visible, I still happily stare into another guy's eyes lol I even kissed a frog! Thanks for taking time to be with me, B and having you around is already my best gift.. but you can always give me a birthday present. Dun forget!

May I

It has been weeks since I last scribbled anything here. I'm in my second last trimester for school. I am looking forward to complete my part time studies. I'm also very much looking forward to my cousin's wedding cos that is when I'd be on my annual leave! It's time for a break and I'm hoping to get a new job real soon. It's May Day; the RECRUIT section of the Straits Times caught my attention: TIME TO MOVE ON. It shares five signs which tells you that it is time to seek greener pastures.

I thought things through about my job. I've always had high expectations of myself and since my transfer to this branch, I haven't been happy. There's plenty of negative aura coming from unappreciative customers and unmotivated colleagues. My manager told me that I'm always too strong-willed about being right. The fact is customers are always right! Once, based on the service compliance I refused a customer's remittance request. He demanded to see my manager. She proceeded with the transaction. She didn't even know why I refused such a routine transaction. I explained. Guess what? She told me that I'd have just stopped her! I told her in my experience, I'd also know how to work with discretion. She is my superior which means she'd have the authority to refuse the customer firmly. I cannot bend rules just to please customers who are louder.

I had a traumatic phrase recently where I was sexually harassed by a regular customer who insulted the modesty of women. I made a police report only cos my company did not take any prompt action about my safety. The incident had caused me emotional distress for a few nights. It is really disappointing when my manager took the matter lightly. She commented that nothing will happen to me since the man cannot do anything in broad daylight. Either she is unemphatic or this is definitely not the proper way to deal with grievance. Family and close friends showed their support. They provided the listening ear and shoulder to cry on.

Mama encouraged me to get a new job. I'm thankful for her blessings and understanding. I need not take all the nonsense from work. I have given myself a deadline to quit! Just thinking of no longer having to put up with the unhappiness brings smiles to my face and heart. May God bless me with the strength to pull through this period. What I know and believe is, everything is gonna be alright! God is just helping me see what I truly want to do, thru the trials at work. ❤