June 16, 2012

Bury my mind cos this amusement park is no longer fun.

Time passes by and it has been months I didn't update my personal musings. Sometimes no news is good news. Now that I have entry, does it necessarily mean bad news? Then again, perhaps this is my other outlet where I just express my thoughts at this very moment, freely yet responsibly.


I was reminded recently to be more sensitive in my FB posts on work. That brought to mind of this personal space. Heaven knows when I'd have people at work sneaking on me and start their viral spreading of my online rumblings. I wrote quite a bit about my job in this blog. Let's see... I shall share this post on my FB. Go thru my 1500 one hundred and forty-nine entries for all I care not!


Peace out twenties


Blessed 30th Birthday 

I was twenty-nine two weeks ago. Not that I had a big 30th anniversary party for being alive but it was one of those memorable birthday I celebrate love, joy, life with my love ones. Thankful, I was counting my blessings and felt truly blessed, loved and happy. I probably made three same wishes; May God help me find the will and strength to leave this job to embark on a more fulfilling career. I updated my resume and penned my very first resignation letter. Perhaps it is my own silly way to convince myself that God will be granting my wish soon. I was getting too ready!!


Work has been draining. Especially so when I learned the hard way how someone had irresponsibly started this emotional roller coaster ride in my mind. As mentioned when I started off, I posted a quoted conversation in FB one unfortunate day unintentionally suggesting my poor working relationship and my desire to leave this job. It initiated a total different message sent across. Somehow, it was shown to even those not in my friend list. My privacy had been violated. I believed that we'd privacy options for sharing of posts for a valid legal reason but I was wrong. 


 "Facebook never reveals when you choose not to share a post with somebody."

"The people you share with can always share your information with others."



It disgusts me how people successfully communicate their own perception of my simple online posting into something insanely absurdThe latest I heard about myself was I have resigned and after I did so, I gave my manager a solid peace of my mind!? My thoughts were perceived wrongly but what gives this person the idea to conveniently disregard my privacy? Regrettably, I should have know better. My manager was filled in with the incorrect information which must have left her confused with many questions. 


She gave me a cold shoulder for days already but I try to see it more in a positive note. I was appreciating the quiet.. till I was being confronted about my conflicts with her by another party. SHOCKING to me but rumors are meant to be damaging. This is the price to pay for my negligence. I wanted to explain this misunderstanding but I decided that it may just make matters worse. I am hurt and angry. God, please bless me with a forgiving heart. Amen.


Misunderstood XOXO