loved

I'm into this Indonesian song at the moment.. no freaking idea to reason why but I just loike. I won't say moi bf is a playboy yet... people change. =P I can imagine Phil going.. " B, what did I do now...?"
We can like this special someone and eventually conclude it might be more than just like.. What is more amazing is we can decide that we'd fallen in love and when the relationship comes to a nasty end, we dislike the person as much as the damage'd been done.
A few days back, a lady came by to return items to her ex bf. A laptop, ring, a branded bag, among other valuables were thrown into the box to be couriered to him. Claiming he wants the stuffs back, she'd a kick when a colleague started to call the man names... they definitely look as if they were having lots of fun criticising the man.
The declaration of item was " gifts from him ".. When a relationship ends, is this an appropriate way to have a clean cut? To me, I treasure memories and every appreciation my partner gave comes with meaning. I'd still see chapters of my past in the drawers. Being in my idealistic view, when we cant be lovers, let's remain as friends.
Perhaps I've always valued ties and very much a sentimental person who is amazed with details my memory never fails me when it comes to loved ones. For me, I even try hard just to separate the exes and the current. I know I've a skeptical perception on being in a relationship. I've this inner roller coaster ride with trust.. I don't trust myself to love another after Woon but I fail myself when I began to accept Phil in my life. I love LOVE and that defines life..
If life is short, I rather fill it with love, love and love...

Fathers' Day

The first thing i did the moment my eyes greeted the break of dawn was to dial dad's number. "Happy fathers' day, papa.. i love you"
Daddy thanked me and asked.. "Just woke up?"
*giggles* "off to bed after this. It's only 5am. Are you coming home today?"
My dad came home in the afternoon. So did my aunt and cousin who came with my belated birthday presents. She got me pretty material of purple hue and he got me a bag from Bangkok. I was smiling to myself. There goes another bag to the collection and Daddy'd really get me a push cart to lelong them. Then again, which girl can ever have enough bags, shoes, accessories... the list continues.
Wanted to bring family out to dine at Segar, the Thai Chinese restaurant near Bedok interchange but cos it's packed with families enjoying dinners with their head of the family, we opt for Simpang Bedok instead. The bill came up to about $120. Food was average and we'd to tapau cos Mum wanna watch Cinta Fitri. The cab ride managed to allow watch the favourite Indonesian sinetron.
No work tomorrow keeps me happy and I managed to complete one topic on the Macro assignment. Once started, it's halfway done. Boyfriend is away again and i miss his nonsense already..

BBQ at Changi Beach

Snippets of BBQ at Changi Beach 07062008

Dafer fetched Hiddy and I from school to the BBQ pit. Food from BBQ Wholesale was a lot more than expected. Birthday belle, Shasha didn't get any classmates to join. Ironic as it is, the two other BBQ pits were occupied by her school mates. I love our cake Mum got from The Royals. It looked like an engagement cake. My aunt suggested i wish to get married soon. That is of cos not anywhere near future. Speaking of which, I got to be the first to share someone special's piece of good news. I hear wedding bells ringing.

Shasha enjoyed her 14th celebration especially when Sue turned up with a present for her too. They stayed up all night playing poker and games. Not forgetting, checking out on transvestites. They also managed to finish up most of the food! I came home on my own. I rather indulge in the comfort of my bed, snuggling up with nobody and enjoy aircon.. no thanks to wet grass and hard floors. A preparation for Macroeconomics test on Saturday keeps me occupied. Looking forward to see my beloved Phil who'd be back from Japan soon. I miss my B loads. It's a new start at Bedok branch tomorrow. It fills me with anticipation yet longing for my former colleagues and customers. I mentioned I want to be the sunshine of the new place. Hopefully, I'd get well acquainted with new faces soon.

I visited Batman in TTSH in the evening. My childhood sweetheart is in a really bad condition from the unfortunate car accident. He'd be paralysed. I'm not sure if he is aware of how critical his spinal injury is. When I stood by his side, he called out my name and asked if I'm ok. He claimed he's good. His swollen face makes him feel fat. He can't feel his limbs. My cousin and I joked he is still our handsome hero. His pregnant wife looked tired when we visit. My aunt kept nagging about tattoos on his body and preach about Islamic teachings on our way back. She isn't my favourite auntie for a reason. I do not see why she usually have nasty remarks coming from her. I'd only pray for the best for Batman. I know there'll be emotional and financial burden for him and his family. With a baby on its way in September and their new home almost ready, it'd be a joyous beginning of their married life but it comes with a twist and insyallah they'd get by..

retreat

Aerial view from Thai Airways

Frequent spot to key drop at the lobby of Bangkok City Inn

My inedible birthday cake where i celebrated my 26th at Dreamworld

I'd a birthday retreat in Bangkok. Didn't enjoy it as much as i was hoping to. I'm not into night markets. I've never been used to bargaining and felt it's somewhat weird to bring the prices even lower when it's cheap. I preferred air-conditioned shopping malls. I bought 10 bags, 6 tops, some accessories, postcards which i regard as a donation and a pair of shorts. Initially I want to get lingerie, which my close buddies would know that's my favourite department. =P I did a quick Maths and decided GSS would get me those and i need not put additional weight to my pregnant back pack. I was about to regret about not buying any shoes but... when I got home I realised I'd 4 new pairs which I hid from impulsive buying sometime back. Oh well, I'm sure everyone's such experience!? The locals kept speaking in Thai and I seriously had no freaking idea it'd get me irritated. I was cranky too cos food available wasn't to my liking. Food was my three bowls of instant noodles and the seafood platter at the Manhattan Fish Market. Oh yes, not forgetting the tom yam soup from the food court in MBK which was nicer than edible. Being away from my loved ones laced me with emotions. Mum cried daily and she didn't cook for the four days i was away. Knowing that her daughter loves to eat a lot, she only imagined the worst of me starving. I spent my birthday in Dreamworld. I review it as an excellent place to practice photography.

Then again, I have no wish to spend another 1000baht on the theme park where i managed to do very little. I'm game for Krabi though. I prefer the sun, sand and sea.. Ophelia love, let's save up for this trip! Looking forward to tomorrow's BBQ pit. Sue, be there or be square. Cheers..