loved

I'm into this Indonesian song at the moment.. no freaking idea to reason why but I just loike. I won't say moi bf is a playboy yet... people change. =P I can imagine Phil going.. " B, what did I do now...?"
We can like this special someone and eventually conclude it might be more than just like.. What is more amazing is we can decide that we'd fallen in love and when the relationship comes to a nasty end, we dislike the person as much as the damage'd been done.
A few days back, a lady came by to return items to her ex bf. A laptop, ring, a branded bag, among other valuables were thrown into the box to be couriered to him. Claiming he wants the stuffs back, she'd a kick when a colleague started to call the man names... they definitely look as if they were having lots of fun criticising the man.
The declaration of item was " gifts from him ".. When a relationship ends, is this an appropriate way to have a clean cut? To me, I treasure memories and every appreciation my partner gave comes with meaning. I'd still see chapters of my past in the drawers. Being in my idealistic view, when we cant be lovers, let's remain as friends.
Perhaps I've always valued ties and very much a sentimental person who is amazed with details my memory never fails me when it comes to loved ones. For me, I even try hard just to separate the exes and the current. I know I've a skeptical perception on being in a relationship. I've this inner roller coaster ride with trust.. I don't trust myself to love another after Woon but I fail myself when I began to accept Phil in my life. I love LOVE and that defines life..
If life is short, I rather fill it with love, love and love...

Fathers' Day

The first thing i did the moment my eyes greeted the break of dawn was to dial dad's number. "Happy fathers' day, papa.. i love you"
Daddy thanked me and asked.. "Just woke up?"
*giggles* "off to bed after this. It's only 5am. Are you coming home today?"
My dad came home in the afternoon. So did my aunt and cousin who came with my belated birthday presents. She got me pretty material of purple hue and he got me a bag from Bangkok. I was smiling to myself. There goes another bag to the collection and Daddy'd really get me a push cart to lelong them. Then again, which girl can ever have enough bags, shoes, accessories... the list continues.
Wanted to bring family out to dine at Segar, the Thai Chinese restaurant near Bedok interchange but cos it's packed with families enjoying dinners with their head of the family, we opt for Simpang Bedok instead. The bill came up to about $120. Food was average and we'd to tapau cos Mum wanna watch Cinta Fitri. The cab ride managed to allow watch the favourite Indonesian sinetron.
No work tomorrow keeps me happy and I managed to complete one topic on the Macro assignment. Once started, it's halfway done. Boyfriend is away again and i miss his nonsense already..

BBQ at Changi Beach

Snippets of BBQ at Changi Beach 07062008

Dafer fetched Hiddy and I from school to the BBQ pit. Food from BBQ Wholesale was a lot more than expected. Birthday belle, Shasha didn't get any classmates to join. Ironic as it is, the two other BBQ pits were occupied by her school mates. I love our cake Mum got from The Royals. It looked like an engagement cake. My aunt suggested i wish to get married soon. That is of cos not anywhere near future. Speaking of which, I got to be the first to share someone special's piece of good news. I hear wedding bells ringing.

Shasha enjoyed her 14th celebration especially when Sue turned up with a present for her too. They stayed up all night playing poker and games. Not forgetting, checking out on transvestites. They also managed to finish up most of the food! I came home on my own. I rather indulge in the comfort of my bed, snuggling up with nobody and enjoy aircon.. no thanks to wet grass and hard floors. A preparation for Macroeconomics test on Saturday keeps me occupied. Looking forward to see my beloved Phil who'd be back from Japan soon. I miss my B loads. It's a new start at Bedok branch tomorrow. It fills me with anticipation yet longing for my former colleagues and customers. I mentioned I want to be the sunshine of the new place. Hopefully, I'd get well acquainted with new faces soon.

I visited Batman in TTSH in the evening. My childhood sweetheart is in a really bad condition from the unfortunate car accident. He'd be paralysed. I'm not sure if he is aware of how critical his spinal injury is. When I stood by his side, he called out my name and asked if I'm ok. He claimed he's good. His swollen face makes him feel fat. He can't feel his limbs. My cousin and I joked he is still our handsome hero. His pregnant wife looked tired when we visit. My aunt kept nagging about tattoos on his body and preach about Islamic teachings on our way back. She isn't my favourite auntie for a reason. I do not see why she usually have nasty remarks coming from her. I'd only pray for the best for Batman. I know there'll be emotional and financial burden for him and his family. With a baby on its way in September and their new home almost ready, it'd be a joyous beginning of their married life but it comes with a twist and insyallah they'd get by..