Don't be sad

I've been trying so hard to contain my emotions but I broke down and sobbed in the bathroom till I threw up. I'm feeling terrible. Puffy-eyed, I'm refraining from crying as I type this entry. I miss the usual Sunday evenings with my best-est friend. Badly. I quickly wiped my tears away. Mama just got back and turned to look at me. Probably heard my sniffle. I'm gonna act busy by typing away and NOT look up. I'm feeling the emotional strain. Crying is cathartic but it doesn't erase the cause of the tears.