How was your X'mas?
I enjoyed our family get-together at Changi Beach over Dec babies' birthday celebration and pot-luck.
We played fun games and watched an awesome group of guys (doing what I think is..) kite-boarding. I feel in love once again. Not with any of the guys but the sun, sand and sea! I'd definitely would like to try kite-boarding sometime.
I'm proud of my mum who joined us for our family fun under the sun despite feeling under the weather! It was a well-spent lovely holiday. Almost perfect. I dropped my handphone and saw the inner lcd cracked which left me contact-less for the the few hours. No one tried to reach me though! =P
I have a few entries in my draft which I shall leave them as they were. This explains why this brief entry for December only began tonight. I used to keep a diary and when I cleared them cos they were memories of the past, it felt as if evidence of the written truth were discarded. I remember I'd a childhood dream to be a writer. The kind who writes plays cos I felt like an au naturel drama queen. That is of cos apart from wanting to be a teacher. I stopped tutoring when my student made me cry. When it comes to work, I have trained a few trainees but none of them stayed long. I celebrated my 9th anniversary last week with my 'buddy' who trained me when I joined. She is very proud of my experience and knowledge attained (after I wasted my youth away..) It is ironic how I also did the same thing when I trained my newbies. I encouraged them to leave when they shared how terrible it was to be in the customer service especially in our company. Just how did I survive..
It was just a short conversation. I saw her earlier. Despite the long wait, she was still all smiles. Somehow the smiles made me stretch my tired muscles too. I asked how did she do that. She shared that everyone of us are usually caught up with the stress in life. We often do not realise that by controlling our emotions, we are actually absorbing the stress into our system. She only took a control of her life by moving out of comfort zone to be as happy as she is today. She only has the 'spark' to thank for the lovely change. That 'spark' which convinced her that she had enough of faking smiles and telling herself everything is alright. She wished me the best and I wondered to myself when I will have the courage to say it's enough! Will I ever? We shall see.
