The end

I tendered my resignation last July 2nd. Something I never thought I'd do anytime soon, despite being desperate to break away from my employer of 140 months. I discussed with my loved ones and included my caring best friends in this BIG decision making process. The tension I felt at work didn't make me feel any better. I kept encouraging myself to ignore the negative vibes but I couldn't deny the fact that it was extremely draining. I had enough! After a tearful lunch break with my parents. I went up to my manager to pass her my letter.

After I submitted the resignation letter, I felt more at ease. I wasn't expecting the relationship between my manager and I to improve.. but it became worse! She treated me like an invisible soul. Ironic when I was still her assistant. I was deeply hurt by her lack of professionalism and began counting down the days to stop being colleagues. I was happier somehow. I received numerous compliments. Once, a customer did a comparison between me and my manager. She preferred me to attend to her issues cos I was patient and very attentive. As days went by, I started to worry about being unemployed.


Thank God, I was offered employment as a branch supervisor in a beauty industry before I left the company. I requested to start on 27th Aug.. and my new employer is willing to allow that. I am thankful for HIS blessings. I am praying for a fruitful start. Sure hopes it is a wise decision. For now, I shall enjoy my break from work commitments.

Bury my mind cos this amusement park is no longer fun.

Time passes by and it has been months I didn't update my personal musings. Sometimes no news is good news. Now that I have entry, does it necessarily mean bad news? Then again, perhaps this is my other outlet where I just express my thoughts at this very moment, freely yet responsibly.


I was reminded recently to be more sensitive in my FB posts on work. That brought to mind of this personal space. Heaven knows when I'd have people at work sneaking on me and start their viral spreading of my online rumblings. I wrote quite a bit about my job in this blog. Let's see... I shall share this post on my FB. Go thru my 1500 one hundred and forty-nine entries for all I care not!

Peace out twenties

Blessed 30th Birthday 

I was twenty-nine two weeks ago. Not that I had a big 30th anniversary party for being alive but it was one of those memorable birthday I celebrate love, joy, life with my love ones. Thankful, I was counting my blessings and felt truly blessed, loved and happy. I probably made three same wishes; May God help me find the will and strength to leave this job to embark on a more fulfilling career. I updated my resume and penned my very first resignation letter. Perhaps it is my own silly way to convince myself that God will be granting my wish soon. I was getting too ready!!


Work has been draining. Especially so when I learned the hard way how someone had irresponsibly started this emotional roller coaster ride in my mind. As mentioned when I started off, I posted a quoted conversation in FB one unfortunate day unintentionally suggesting my poor working relationship and my desire to leave this job. It initiated a total different message sent across. Somehow, it was shown to even those not in my friend list. My privacy had been violated. I believed that we'd privacy options for sharing of posts for a valid legal reason but I was wrong. 


 "Facebook never reveals when you choose not to share a post with somebody."

"The people you share with can always share your information with others."


It disgusts me how people successfully communicate their own perception of my simple online posting into something insanely absurd. The latest I heard about myself was I have resigned and after I did so, I gave my manager a solid peace of my mind!? My thoughts were perceived wrongly but what gives this person the idea to conveniently disregard my privacy? Regrettably, I should have know better. My manager was filled in with the incorrect information which must have left her confused with many questions. 


She gave me a cold shoulder for days already but I try to see it more in a positive note. I was appreciating the quiet.. till I was being confronted about my conflicts with her by another party. SHOCKING to me but rumors are meant to be damaging. This is the price to pay for my negligence. I wanted to explain this misunderstanding but I decided that it may just make matters worse. I am hurt and angry. God, please bless me with a forgiving heart. Amen.


Misunderstood XOXO

Love thy wedding

We were besties in school, waited for each other at the bus interchange and usually our laughters fill the bus rides. Now, I'd say she is one of my married close buddies, Mrs Skinny. I wish the couple have a blissful marriage and may they stay faithful to their love till Jannah. I was at her wedding yesterday. It was a 'private' event where only close friends and families were invited; the kind of wedding she wanted since school. She probably didn't expect it to be one memorable episode especially with ex-schoolmates to be her photographers and have bestie, Tuty to doll her up into a gorgeous bride. I'd count on my trusted professional husband and wife pair, Is and Yatni from 'Pixel Muse' to definitely capture her beautiful moments with friends and family well cos my makeover shoots were done by them!

officially yours 

On another note, I began to reflect on my ideal wedding. I don't know if I shared about it before. Since my first love, I wanna be Mrs somebody. :) I'd like to have a beach-party dinner reception. Not those you have booze and party food?! Just a simple yet elegant event by the sea. Our favourite happy songs and yummy food, kampong style. Ubin comes to my mind instantly! It'd be in the late afternoon where the sunset witness the end of my single-hood. It'd be private solemnisation, witnessed by close buddies as my bridesmaids and family, which in my opinion refers to the relatives WE know personally! I wanna be his beautiful bride, Mr husband would remember me for; even if he should suffer from senile dementia! Is that too much to ask for?! 

That dream wedding used to be an even more extravagant idea! Somehow as years go by, I begin to realize such dreams need that special someone and God's willing to make it come true. Who knows if one day, I may no longer dream to have my ideal wedding and just wanna get married without any hassle?! I'm still as skeptical when it comes to marriages. I shall appreciate life as it is. For now, just don't ask me when is my turn to get hitched cos I am not seeing anyone. Seriously, you won't want to step on my tail and get a slap across your face with my unforgiving answers-at times! Peace out.